a world outside our own

every single day we were busy dealing with our daily lives, working, studying, managing our own households, we are considered very lucky to be here in a country like Malaysia even though it was not some great country but we should be thankful it wasnt one of the worst in the world...

almost everyone here has basic necessity, food, clothes and shelter...worst of all, we always complained that we do not have enough money to spend, so much homework to do, so many exams to cope with, no car to drive, not enough entertainment, no new places to hang out, this place sucks that place sucks, college not good enough, malaysia not good enough, etc....well, those were the words that were always clinging to my mouth...well, not until i saw the documentary that were documenting harsh living enviroment faced by the egyptians...but of course it wasnt the only country that the citizens struggles for their daily life for basic living needs...

throughout the documentary, all i could feel and see was grievances, their strong will to live, their never dying determination to get through each day...each day for them is a whole new battle and some were already out there working so hard to earn a living at such a young age and till the end of their lives...but they never complain about anything that they are coping with each day, instead, they were determined to face any obstacle...and at such a young age, i think they had learned the truth of living...and at such a young age, i think their understanding of what life is all about surpasses those who lives in luxury for a hundred years where it only took them as little as 7 years to find out...

after that documentary, all my desire in my heart were pushed aside...i suddenly felt that theres nothing more i need in my life because i already have what i needed...even to a point, i felt that all our goals in life, ambitions and dreams we had means nothing at all...we wanna be millionaires, have a happy family, live a luxury and happy life...so what?....even that one day we were to obtained everything we wanted, the day we die, we die the way those people died that owned nothing in life...we are basically the same as they were...we came to this world with nothing and we leave this world leaving everything behind...

still, to many of us, possessions is what makes life meaningful to us in its own unique way to each and every one of us...just that sometimes, dont be too stubborn in life...learning to let go sometimes and slowing down sometimes and realising that we actually had what we needed is not a bad thing at all...remember that we are much luckier than millions out there...

the truth of love

to this point of time, i think each and everyone around me may it be my friends or family, all of us had gone through this essential path of experiencing what love is all about...what is it actually? i think each and everyone will have different views, perceptions and definitions to it...and that variation depends on the our own personal encounters...no matter what may be your definitions, every one of it has its own truth but it was never perfect...

love is actually a feeling that rises from within and it has both great constructive and destructive powers...it is a feeling that we as human beings possess that is given to us by god that differentiates us and animals...possessing such unique feeling, we often eliminate the word impossible when we are in the field of this great influence of feeling that took over us and even sometimes took control of our lives without even you knowing or realizing...it is in fact, one of the greatest gift from god to mankind but it is also sometimes referred to by power that even the heavens are afraid of...

to many of us, love has brought miracles into our lives but at the same time, it had left marks that can never heal in our hearts...we had our happiest moments in life and also the worst moments in our lives...the truth of love is that it is never perfect...no matter how experienced a person might be, he or she can never find a perfect definition of what love is all about, he or she can never understand what love is actually...even monks who had already walked themselves out of the sufferings of the world define it as one of the impermanence in life but they never truly know what is it all about...to me, i guess love is actually something that is incomplete given to us by god and that is why, no matter what, no perfection can be found and yet it consists great powers that brought hopes in our lives...

so, seek for your own truth of love and even though it is not perfect but you can use it to perfect your life as many has proven that it is possible...

revolvement

in this world, every single thing is inter related and we need each and every elements of it in order to co exist with every thing around us harmoniously...many moments in our lives, most of us only looks at our own, focused on our own lives and the scope of seeing things around us is so narrow even at times we tend to feel that everything revolves around us and we are everything and solely everything in this entire world, well maybe only "your world"...and that is where we start to miss out things around us...

when we put our hands into water and we tried to hold as much water as we can with our hands...no matter how hard we tried to close the gaps of our fingers to prevent the water from escaping our grip, the water will still escape your grip eventually even you strain your hands as much as you can, you can only lengthen the process of it...but if we were to let our hands be free effortlessly within the water, the water is actually all around your hands...

so why do we need to try so hard to hold on to things which is impermanent where we can try to let it go and let our hands run freely under the water where what we obtain might not be what exactly what we wanted but then the joy of it definately is more than when we stubbornly wanting something that we all know wont last...in fact nothing in our lives is permanent...so why torture ourselves and stubbornly wanting something that will eventually wither....let go of your heart and stop grasping your life so hard trying to force everything out of something where everything you wanted is already around you...

tests of life

it was just 2 days ago that i ended my blog...it was just 2 days ago that i really pushed my limits into putting it all down...it was so hard, but i knew it is going to be worth it...true enough, i felt much lighter and happier...today, my parents came back from vacation and they bought me something for present but i wasnt at all happy eventhough i was laughing but instead i was surprised to see it...it was something that she wanted for such a long time and i didnt get it for her cuz it was too expensive....but again, this isnt going to be the focus, what im trying to say here is that life sometimes can be so ironic...

it was just at that moment where you wanted to start anew, just at that moment where you wanna lock it away, just at the moment where you were to accept everything that happened and face it with a smile but then, something continued to happen and relate back to the past and something so coincident to the point where you would think that it could be a sign to remind you of it and not to forget about it...

well, this is life...whatever happens, might really seem so funny and so ironic and it might even make you feel that god is trying to fool around with your emotions...it is all tests of life, dont be afraid of it instead be thankful that you are tested because it only shows that you can do better than that...what i had learnt today was that even though for that moment i taught i was so strong, something hit me once again, but i know i must face it...instead of not accpeting the present, i took it and put it in my shelf where i can see it everyday....even though it might make you unhappy, that feeling is never gonna stay forever...each second that ticks by decreses the sadness you feel and when the last bit of it left you, you are then resistant to it...

never to run away from anything...face it as it is...take it as tests given to you just to make you a stronger, better and wiser person...dont be afraid of it but instead be thanful that you are tested because it only shows that you can do better than that as even in all the exams in our lives, the purpose of it is to make you become better and better in whatever you are doing...

the continuation

this new blog is the continuation from the path of recovery,a crossroad between what is the past and what is ahead...i couldnt really say that i had totally completed the path to serenity as none of us is able to achieve that state except someone who is exceptionally high in wisdom but then, i had walked through it and i think throughout that path, i had gained enough to move on to the next chapter of life...

this blog is not going to be anything linked to my past or even directly to my life...its not going to be much about me...but truths of life that i would like to share from my personal encounters in daily lives...

as people grow, the wisdom within us grows as well but most of us does not know our true potential in unlocking all of the wisdom we had and using it to live a much better life, healthier than a hundered year old oak tree, not affected by any harsh situation and wealthier than the richest man on earth...first of all, selflessness needs to be achieved...here i am, collecting fragments of wisdom the intellectuals had left behind and improvising it to our modern daily lives...i really hope that one day, all the fragments that i have collected will enable me to live life as close as possible to perfection but nothing in this world is ever perfect that is why, being somewhere close to it is already more than enough...